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a good friend, Brett, said to me as we were drifting in a very warm saltwater pool,
"you should just make your movie".  i had an elucidation, an epiphany, a validation.
"you're right" was my answer.

the following day, i shared this with my screenwriter friend, Kris.
he said, "you should do it.  i'll help you rewrite the screenplay.  i can live vicariously through you".
not sure if i would encourage anyone to do that, but it got me more excited.

maybe i can do this.  i definitely should do this.  after all, my dream was to make a movie and i don't want to be lying on my deathbed never having made one.

so i'm planning on making my movie.  it's a daunting endeavor.  i've never come close to making a full length feature.  some shorts, guerrilla style...make that buying-stuff-from-electronic-stores-and-then-returning-them-within-30-days style.

i have to find a crew.  i didn't exactly cultivate a lot of close contacts in tinsel town.  too busy with my day job.  actually, that's not the reason, but it sounded like a credible excuse.  so in a way, i'm starting from scratch. but good lighting and good sound is about as important as it gets if i want a film that looks like it was made with skill.  and i need an assistant director.  because i need all the help i can get.

i have to find actors.  don't even know where to begin.  and can i find actors that are good enough to bring my characters to life?  probably so.  but where do i find them., hiding in the nooks and crannies of this urban sprawl?

i have to have equipment.  and locations.  and a schedule.  and craft services (hopefully, my mom--the best catering on earth!).  and a budget.

i can't get my arms or head around it all.  but it's do-able.  others have done it, on the cheap by the seat of their pants with only a strong desire to bring their story to life.  so i can do it, too.

just hope i don't come up with too many excuses.

this will be my document of the process.  it may be a long, painful, tediously slow and tortuous road.  but hopefully there will be a movie at the end of it all.

it's already been over three weeks since my friend told me to make my movie myself.

time to get a movie on.